in vitro – Our Journey To Three

1 Jan 2018Erin B.

a letter to our surrogate.

To our GC, There aren’t nearly enough words, gestures, or expressions of gratitude that could ever show how truly thankful Matt & I are to be on this surrogacy journey with you. While we have struggled with infertility for five years and endured ten IVF cycles, nine IVF transfers, five egg retrievals, and six miscarriages […]

5 Nov 2017Erin B.

update & timeline.

Well, y’all, I thought it was about time for an update – especially those that don’t follow us on social media/Instagram. I believe I’ve mentioned this before, but because my husband and I had no embryos to use (for our gestational carrier), it meant that we had to go through another IVF cycle (our tenth) […]

18 Oct 2017Erin B.

bye, wanda.

Oh, my dearest Wanda. We met about four years ago when we first started seeking help for infertility. I didn’t expect our relationship to last this long, nor did I expect to have such a love/hate relationship with you. Our first few months together in 2013, you found out my left Fallopian tube had become […]

14 Dec 2016Erin B.

life is just hard.

Sitting in our living room with the twinkle of Christmas tree lights, that I can see out of the corner of my eye, has been a constant reminder of what we still don’t have. The lights of the tree shine so bright, while inside I feel so dull. Keeping my cool gets pretty difficult thsi […]

14 Jan 201615 Jan 2016Erin B.

This takes the cake.

Heartbroken. Devastated. Distraught. Absolutely no word I even type can describe how we are feeling or what we are going through, yet again. Another failed transfer. Another failed transfer of “normal” PGS embryos. FAILED. An 80% success rate down the drain. $10,000 down the drain. The pain. The agony. It’s just too much. My faith […]